i feel like this isn't me.

it's hard to say,
like there's something
crawling around
something that's bigger.

it's fall
time to put on the mask
time to pretend i have some sort
of talent that if i had i wouldn't be here.

sometimes i'm weak.
sometimes i break.
sometimes i get sick of smiling.
sometimes
sometimes.

tell me when to stop. x3.

i did something that i am not ashamed of.
even though you'd like me to be.
but tonight isn't about that.

i'll emulate and imitate
and never originate.
and you can fuck off, because i'm happier that way.

these are never songs, just fragments of poetry
i apparently missed writing when i was fifteen.
like everyone else with the internet or a spiral notebook
i'm aware that i'm just another cliche (and no, i don't do it best.)



sometimes all it takes is one thing to make you smile.

at least i don't have that hair.

it's easy to trick yourself into thinking you're worthless when you're tired.

suddenly feel like nothing can go right
or write.

or anything.

what happens when you're on a dead set path to nothing
with no option b.

wish I could take the puzzle pieces
pile themback intoplace
pick up each worried life
And make it a perfect picture
Snapped into spaces
Instead of broken into bits.

Friends close and far
Keep me going to the end
For you if your head is as mixed up
As mine gets sometimes (may contain nuts)
I love you, i'd do anything to make you Guys smile (I'd swim the ocean for you)
Say the word
And I'll give you back more than you need

"The only reason for time is so that everything doesn't happen at once." Albert Einstein.

Always different from the other side
Keep your hands on my body
Your skin on my mind.

I'm so bad at guitar.

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i'm not good, but i'm feeling higher
drunk in the dark it looks the same
so close your eyes and breathe a little faster
because it's gonna get better before it gets worse.

fall in love after i'm in love already
feel with all i've got
landing's never soft
brace myself for
recoil and retaliate

and i'll keep you close
even though somewhere
it's killing me to do it
because it'd hurt more
if you weren't here
and i'll tell you everything i know
but i'd never tell "you."

take all my sorries and shove them back into my mouth
choke on them because i can't take anything back
i don't do mistakes in the past, only in the present tense
regrets are for the lost, bad memories for the wicked

the first hit always comes free
i'm smiling hopeless still.

i'm the best at breaking up
at pulling out when the going gets rough
dodging blows and wave goodbye
keep my feet on the ground
and keep my own hands dry

suicides an escape for the young and hopeless.
the older you get the harder it is to let go
death wishes are built on the ideal
that someone wants to see you live.

all i know is that my hands are shaking
because you let me know yours are too.

we sit and wait for news
while you sit on the edge of-

we wait for cell phone calls
and stilted laughter
of "i almost-"
but "not quite".
guess you got lucky, this time.
because,
"it's ok, i'm ok."

two sides of the game
at once it's played
keep one your toes
if it falls
you're going down fast and hard

miss something i can't even name
my heart breaks for something i'm not sure of
i feel like i'm not me
like my skin doesn't fit
like i'm half underwater
not bothering to try to breathe

We got out clean
Nothing but a note
And a list of songs
To remind you that
We survived each other.